night
thickens the turbidity
of my grey-brown emotions
as they intertwine
almost as if to inveigle me
in a little game
of lost identities
and aphorisms
that once lended
a meaning to this
design...
now i just wade
through and
pretend
i cant
see....

sounds of laughter from the adjacent room. i should get up and join in. it is definitely a better option than thinking of what to type in a blank space. its just that i'm worried. i have a feeling my writing has lost its earlier touch. the magical one (an illusion perhaps). maybe its because i've grown up. the teenage mind is probably a more fertile ground for seeds of creative ideals.

infact, this initiative(starting a blog) was a desperate attempt to revive my old spirit. to rediscover what used to be my alternative way of life. looking at the past few posts, i have to admit, has only added to my worries.

but then i have hope. i'm keeping this blog alive...so i may be redeemed from this pathetic state of inablity to express...

its time for a revolution...dnt u think?

memoirs of a joyful afternoon

happiess comes

in warm smiles of classroom faces.
in steam rising from cracked cups of canteen chai
in endless chatter while hanging out in corridoors
in occassional jokes by intimidating lecturers

in sunbeams that light up my bony fingers

an orange fuzzy ball outside the window beckons.

finally...a beautiful day after a long night of turmoil. the warm beams of the sun wrapped around my waist and a sluggish breeze ran through my hair...that was all my tired soul had been longing for all this while...and i just dissolved in this mellow cosmos...

the rustle of the leaves being swept by the wind. faint whispers in my ear.

i shall sleep peacefully today.

drying up

trying hard to block out my sister's rendition of 'dont cry' playin in the background. i'm trying hard to think bout what i should look like tomorrow...

trying very hard...so that things begin to matter again...

somebody..anybody...please wake me up tomorrow..

don't want to stare at the green canopy outside a broken window instead of listening to the lectures...i've stopped sitting in corners now

maybe i am moving on...