Cogito Ergo Sum

Monday, July 31, 2006

can someone please make me cry..not the depressing depression waala rona just the tears that well out when u see somethin so damn beautiful u cant help it and u feel the little knot somewhere near your heart melting...

hai..i've been so anxious and feelingless lately...i'm sick of all the loud laughing....

Thursday, July 27, 2006

my running nose has given me the perfect excuse for unwashed hair...now filthy for a week...such bliss i have never known!! i love the samarthan environs...friendly office walas who only respond to warm smiles and it doesnt really matter how shabby your demeanour...same questions...not so different answers...


me just found out there is a slight possibility i'll be coming home jaldier than i imagined!!*runs around in circles doing the crazy langoor thing* yup i shall meet my three babies back home who've been complaining every microsecond of the day...the withdrawl symptoms that they suffer from!

home!!! away from everyday rains and chilly weather and prosaic shrubs and bushes...no no more fascination...just evaporated fishoon sey...so did my annoying mood for the past few days...


so i have to get back and wish the birthday boy...yet again! u know how once is not enough!

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

so its just one more day in the rajmahal of sehore and the czarina has been bitten all over by the wretched mosquitoes of this satin white night...seth has dropped in a goodbye after reading a couple of pages of marquez's memoirs...

why does a place feel like home just a day before you leave...

state administrators...lame excuses...soporific explanations...circuitous arguments...i.e. waste of time!

my village expedition has almost come to an end. *sigh*. i have to deal with the unwanted leftovers....

Monday, July 03, 2006

well more adventures to boast about!

went on a one day field trip to sehore to get a feel of the place so we would know what to expect on our major field trip and accordingly reorient our strategy. surely enough all our preconceived notions were sent for a toss and the experience proved to be such a boon. it was my first eye opener to issues concerning villagers of the country...articulated in their own words...

i attended my very first "gram sabha" at about 7 pm in a village deciding to setup a water tank in order to make driniking water available. money was a problem and it was being debated how the money should be should be collected. when the discussion got a little heated i felt a tug on the back of my shirt....a group of little girls had crept behind me some ten of them pushing around trying to make some place to sit. i had interacted with them prior to the gram sabha and now they wanted to continue the discussion! they insisted that i stay and play with them once the gram sabha got over...a false promise i had to make in order to keep them quiet. but questions kept pouring during the course of the meeting...shyly...faces covered behind their hands...but surely...

the group kept growing bigger as each one told me about her dreams ( madam banna chahti hoon)...who comes first in class, who is the naughtiest and who is the leader...i tried to juggle between the proceedings of the gram sabha and our little discussion in the cleverest possible manner...but i failed miserably...a lot of heads turned in our direction..some smiles and some frowns...but we kept going...

these little girls ensured that i had a great time on my visit...i have never felt soo wanted...one actually embarassed me immensely by touching my feet! i let her know that it was a gesture that was unacceptable by me! we said goodbye after exchanging tons of hugs and kisses and i was later told that i had formed my very first fan club!

its a wonderful thing about the village. the immediate acceptance and oneness one feels after interacting with the locals is hard to find elsewhere...maybe that is why people keep going back...

all i can say is that the experience was unique and is already engraved in my heart...i meant to write more about my project and my mini pilgrimage to sanchi ;) but i guess that will happen sometime else...time imposes constraints...